Something Real

The Fray - All At Once

There are some things that I just don't understand.
I'm so absolutely terrified that I might screw something up, say something wrong, do something wrong.
I know that he's busy, as am I, but then I feel guilty because I feel like I'm being too pushy because I want him to call.
He's influencing me here when he's up there. I'll stay up some nights hoping that he'll call, knowing that he most likely won't. But he texts me at least every other day.
I hear his voice, even if it's just him saying his name on his voice mail, I start to melt. I get all happy and giddy when I get a text from him or even when I think of him and/or his face. When I start talking to him I forget everything I wanted to ask him, talk to him about, and everything that's no longer important disappears. I talk to him and I forget how to argue, I forget how to become angry. I have more patience, more understanding.
I'm scared to get close to someone, thinking that it's going to fall out from under me. I tell him things that I usually wouldn't, and then all he cares about is if I'm OK.
Sometimes, I even find myself crying cause I miss him so.
I guess this is how it feels when you finally find something real.
XOXOXO

Something Real