Jumping In!

So I didn't get the chance to watch the CES fireside on Sunday night, but I hear that the speaker spoke about marriage and such. Hannah was freaking out! She's so tired of people talking about getting married all the time. That's kind of how it is when you start out. Actually, that's how it always is! But after some time you learn to not let it bother you any more. I mean she is going to one of the schools that's built to help prepare you for the real world, mission, and marriage. What do you expect? To make things ever funnier! She's taking a dating courtship class. I think I'll tag along when I go up there for a visit in March.
So I've really thought and prayed about whether I really should go to Idaho for my spring break. I've always talked about the 'wants, needs, and supposed tos'. I want to go to Idaho; I need to stay and work; I'm supposed to go. You don't always know why we're supposed to do some things. We just have to trust that He knows what He's doing. All we have to do is ask and He'll respond. As for why I think I'm supposed to go, last year I didn't do so good when I didn't take a break from school. Everyone needs time to chill and relax, no homework to worry about. Then there's the chance to see old friends, and possibly make new ones. Then I also get to get some things done for me to be able to go back to Idaho in Winter 2009. And I've also been feeling a little weird not graduating with my friends. But it feels right to work on taking as many classes as possible (without killing myself) to graduate Summer 2010. Ha! That's the summer after my brother, Austin, gets home from his mission, and before my other brother, Devin, leaves on his! Sweet! Then it's on to Grad school! After this term with going to school and working, we'll see how I do with taking more credits and working. Then when I get to Idaho I have to add in a social life! Goody! :-P
So other than my crazy school life, my last post I talked about a friend of mine that I was going for 'taking a risk'. I talked to him last night. He's doing ok, which is very good. I asked him, and as he put it, "I'm very flattered." We all know what that leads to! LOL! So we're just friends. And that's fine. I totally just realized that this whole situation is pretty much flip-flopped! A year ago, he wanted to date me, but I didn't want to. He respected that and we remained just friends. He doesn't want to date exclusively, and I respect that and thus, we remained just friends. (so technically he started this whole thing! LOL! no i think that that was the lord!)
After thinking over my last relationship, I don't want to have to worry about second guessing what's going on or what's happening. I know that after my ex left for his mission, I had kind of decided that I wanted to date someone that I actually knew. I know it's bad to make plans, but this plan doesn't seem that bad! I want be friends with a guy for a couple of years. We'll probably both just date randomly and somewhere in all of that we'll probably randomly date each other. Then we'll decide together that dating exclusively is what we want to do next. It's only through that and talking with the Lord if you ever know if it's going to work. But I've gotten the 'ok' from the Lord on marrying a guy before. But that's when agency comes in. I met his family and I decided that that atmosphere wasn't good for me! I needed something better for me. It takes time and patience and I'm fine with that. Who knows, maybe I'll date a few guys on a few random dates when I go to Idaho for spring break.
Something tells me that the guy I'm looking for is up there. Well, only time will tell.
Point to be made: What my friend learned, I learned a few months ahead of him. Dating exclusively, and quickly, isn't the smartest thing for some people. And that's ok. So pretty much, I'M NOT TOO COMFORTABLE DATING EXCLUSIVELY! But I put the idea out there, but...dating randomly sounds like fun! (you learn from experience)

XOXO
addison

someday when we are wiser,
when the world's older,
when we have learned.
i pray
someday we may yet live to live and let live.
someday life will be fairer,
need will be rarer,
greed will not pay.
godspeed this bright millennium on its way.
let it come someday.
someday our fight will be won then,
we'll stand in the sun then,
that bright afternoon.
til then,
on days when the sun is gone,
we'll hang on,
wish upon the moon.
change will come
one day,
someday soon.
-song: someday