Let Him Lead Me

It is really almost one am. I know that being up this late is not good for me, however this is my favorite time of day. This is when everyone has gone to bed, but this is also when I do my best thinking. It doesn’t happen every night, so those nights when I feel it I like to take the time to write some of it down. If not I at least hope that my feelings and the Spirit are embedded within these words. Turn on some nice calming music, something to eat or drink, and read and study until I feel ready for bed whenever that may come. Last night, I was trying to sleep in the room with Rachel, the last thing she said before I went to sleep was that she loves him. And sadly all it did was remind me what I don’t have. I know that those feelings do not come from our Father in Heaven. I also know that my Heavenly Father knows the desires of my heart, and He knows how much I love and miss my future family. I am constantly in awe of the kind of people that Heavenly Father puts into my life. Rachel came into my life when I really needed a friend. What I was not expecting to gain was the little sister I never had. I think she was to be a constant reminder of the things to come. My family will grow and that I will find him. I will find my eternal friend and he will stick around even when things look bleak, and things WILL get better. It is only “small moment,” but it is best to look for him with my eyes closed and my heart open. Let Him lead me.