Wednesday, July 16, 2008

Finding Myself

So yes, I just finished watching a movie. P.S. I Love You to be exact. I was told that if I wanted to cry that this is the movie to watch. I didn't cry, but lately everything has given me a different perspective.
I've been trying to decide what to do with my life for this fall. I have to go back to school this fall just to stay on my parents insurance. After thinking about it, I decided that it would probably be better for me to be here in Colorado. As much as I don't like it here, I know that it's better for me. I'll be going to school back down in Littleton and then I'll be working to earn money for school and such for the next year. Watch, I'll probably give myself an early Christmas present and buy my pretty little laptop for myself! LOL!
Austin keeps telling me to be productive. I'll be taking my English class again. I just didn't do well with it this term. Too much going on in life, and in my mind! That's not helpful at all!
But I've learned that I need to find myself more. I used to be this crazy fun little girl who didn't let anything in the world stop her from dreaming and making her dreams come true! I want to be that same little girl again, just a little bit more grown up! That's a part of me that I've missed since the years ago that my world came crashing down. Plus, I'm sure that there are still plenty of things the Lord would like to teach me, as long as I'm paying attention.

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