So I know that I'm not perfect. With recent events I've come to definitely acknowledge things about myself. I'm definitely one of those people who is afraid of commitment. I think I've always liked the idea of a long distance relationship because I know that it would never work. But I've gotten hurt too many times and people leave me too many times. I have a hard time trusting people and I always feel like that when I do the bottom falls out from under me. But as a "protection reaction" I do whatever I can to push people away because I don't expect them to stick around for forever. But life has thrown me for a loop. I have a friend that I don't want to lose, I expect him/her to leave, but they just won't! I don't want them to leave but I'm so afraid of getting hurt. I'm already in deeper than I ever planned to be. I figured I'd be this deep maybe like next year or something if anything happened.
Life is only complicated if you let it be. But sometimes life throws you things that you just don't feel ready for.
But I guess that's why He throws it at us. Because we feel we're not ready, we're more cautious with it.
Just some random videos
You Should Have Lied
Don't Make Me
My December
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